||[Jan. 3rd, 2011|10:48 pm]
It's a brand new year, but i don't feel 'new' inside at all. |
It doesn't help when i do not have your love, support and encouragement; all i get are countless of arguments.
Why do u suspect me so?
I am sure that I have put you before myself practically every single instance, and have cared for u more than I have cared for myself.
But do you do the same?
I don't think so.
All u are ever capable of is accusing me of showing interest in other guys, when in fact, that thought has never crossed my mind.
I am envious of other girls who have bfs who love, care for them, are openly proud of them, and use affectionate terms.
Sometimes it gets so much that it eats me up inside, that I don't even know who I am anymore.
I think i deserve better, i really do.
I have had enough of all these nonsensical bullshit.
I do not need to put up with all these, I do not need to be controlled and tied down till this extent.
I deserve a chance to be blissful and loved, do i?
I will use this HK getaway to think carefully of what I really need and want.
It is time to think of myself for once.